cAtHeRiNe…. 寻找自己的天空..

Really bad mood today…. swt… i really going to hang myself liao…
i went of the driving test again… and i failed AGAIN~!!! what the…..
haih… very sad….. 2nd time liao… i failed again!!! really disappointed… somemore have to pay for the resit again…. haih….. wasted another 150..wasted my time and effort liao.. i feel like giving up jor… what happened?? =(
God, pls help me… i dun want to get fail again!!! sob sob…. wu.. wu..

Feeling very scared now.. cos tomorrow going for my car license liao.. actually i did it once on last Monday.. but i failed Naik Bukit.. =( the car went down when i release the hand break… very disappointed ler..
the most important thing is… if i want to resit.. have to pay anoth 150 bucks… haih.. nowaday taking car license getting more expensive already…. i think i had spent > 1k for it.. haih… me really crisis already…
Somemore next month going for the company trip at Thailand…. have to prepare some $$ to go there… $$ ar…… swt……..
Hopefully tomorrow i can pass and get my "P" license la.. i have been tease by my frens liao… so old liao only go for my driving license.. Friends out there,…. wish me good luck ya!!^^

真的很生气自己。。。。
昨天，帮哥哥去拿他所\做好的印章，，我却把自己的手机给弄丢了！！竟然把它给留在那家店里。。。。 我总是太糊涂和大意！！！真的很心疼！！！
那却是我不能缺乏的的通讯器。。。 我的手机啊！！！ 希望今天我能把它找回， ，也希望店里的老板会还回给我！
朋友们， 若你们联络不到我， 请别担心！ 我还活着！ 希望我能把它找回~！！！

渐渐觉得我的心灵越来越累了。。
累得不想再继续， 累得想放弃， 我能吗?
实在太多烦恼了。。我很想去面对， 但事情往往不是我想象的。然而总会有很多令我出乎的意外。。。。。

何时才能真正的告一段落呢?

有人能告诉我吗?唉！！！！

 给你一个人生哲学的故事 

　　从前，有一个脾气很坏的男孩.他的爸爸给了他一袋钉子，告诉他，每次发脾气或者跟人吵架的时候，就在院子的篱笆上钉一根。第一天，男孩钉了37根钉子。后面的几天他学会了控制自己的脾气，每天钉的钉子也逐渐减少了。他发现，控制自己的脾气，实际上比钉钉子要容易的多。终于有一天，他一根钉子都没有钉，他高兴的把这件事告诉了爸爸。

 　　爸爸说："从今以后，如果你一天都没有发脾气，就可以在这天拔掉一根钉子."
日子一天一天过去，最后，钉子全被拔光了。爸爸带他来到篱笆边上，对他说："儿子，你做得很好，可是看看篱笆上的钉子洞，这些洞永远也不可能恢复了。就象你和一个人吵架，说了些难听的话，你就在他心里留下了一个伤口，像这个钉子洞一样。"插一把刀子在一个人的身体里，再拔出来，伤口就难以愈合了。无论你怎么道歉，伤口总是在那儿。要知道，身体上的伤口和心灵上的伤口一样都难以恢复。你的朋友是你宝贵的财产，他们让你开怀，让你更勇敢。他们总是随时倾听你的忧伤。你需要他们的时候，他们会支持你，向你敞开心扉。"告诉你的朋友你多么爱他们，告诉所有你认为是朋友的人，你的行动可以从邮寄这个小小的故事开始。有一天，当这封信回到你的信箱里时。你会发现你有一个很大的朋友圈.

　　永远不要嘲笑别人的梦想。不要随便给一个人定性。说话时要慢，思想时要快。

　　打电话的时候请你微笑，对方一定感觉得到。 

朋友本不该有那么重要，朋友又的确那么重要。生命里或许可以没有感动、没有胜利…没有其他的东西，但不能没有的是朋友。

朋友是可以一起打着伞在雨中漫步；是可以一起在海边沙滩上打个滚儿；是可以一起沉溺于某种音乐遐思；是可以一起徘徊于书海畅游；朋友是有悲伤我陪你一起掉眼泪，有欢乐我和你一起傻傻的笑……

朋友不一定常常联系，但也不会忘记，每次偶尔念起，还是感觉那么温暖、那么亲切、那么柔情；朋友是把关怀放在心里，把关注藏在眼底；朋友是相伴走过一段又一段的人生，携手共度一个又一个黄昏；朋友是想起时平添喜悦，忆及时更多温柔。 朋友如醇酒，味浓而易醉；朋友如花香，淡雅且芬芳；朋友是秋天的雨，细腻又满怀诗意；

朋友是十二月的梅，纯洁又傲然挺立。朋友不是画，它比画更绚丽；朋友不是歌，它比歌更动听；朋友应是那意味深长的散文，写过昨天又期待未来。

朋友的美不在来日方长；朋友最真是瞬间永恒、相知刹那；朋友的可贵不是因为曾一同走过的岁月，朋友最难得是分别以后依然会时时想起，依然能记得：你，是我的朋友。

有朋友的日子里总是阳光灿烂，花朵鲜艳；有朋友的时候才发现自己已经拥有了一切。我们可以失去很多，但不能失去的是朋友。朋友也许并不能成为一段永恒，朋友也许只是你生命中某段时间的一个过客，但因为这份缘起缘灭，更使生命变得美丽起来，朋友的情感更加生动和珍贵。即使没有将来又有何妨？至少，曾经我与你一起走过朋友的路。

你看到了吗？我在默默的祝福你。*^_^* *^_^* *^_^*

Finally, Kevin got his new car liao..it’s a Kenari…But he still like to complaint his car, sometime says padel not big enough, sometimes says got a bit weird sounds.. this n that… haih… dunno what he wants..

Haih… When i can get my MyVi.. many ppl asked me.. why i want to buy MyVi? i also dunno.. but i know i like it… it looks not too big and not too small..cos i like cars a bit round round, fat fat and not  too big.. lol.. cute cute type.. 

Recently, i meet somemone that’s very selfish. i should says i know it some times ago.. but i really cannot tahan her selfiness anymore. i feel uncomfortable to talk to her sometime. But, i know i can’t do anything about it. Although there are few times i feel like i want to let her know.But.. i know is not that easy, u know. seeing her that keep on voice up her voice when she talk to another my fren,i really feel pity for my fren! All i can says is… "My Fren, good luck to u!"

Y’day, kena scold by my boss… fire gao gao..mayb i did not prepared anything for the meeting lor. On the way going to the meeting, i simulate the problem in the car.. feeling not well..cos i was concentrate on my work… (facing the laptop while doing simulation), my kepala very pening, feel like want to vomit liao.. but tahan lor.. my boss told me that i still lack of product knowledge and my identifying skill still not strong enough.. Mayb i never attend to any training class b4. haih… that moment, i feel like i’m very weak, and my confidence gone AGAIN. he asked me whether i like the current job or not as a helpdesk. Actually, i do like this job… but if the customer not so high demand, if my boss not so high expectation, if they dun push me until i feel like giving up…. Very stupid right? which boss dun push thier emloyee one? which customer dun high demand one? Have to put much more effort liao.. DUN give up!! Say NO NO!!! DUN too soft hearted! DUN always just keep silent eventhough is not my fault!!!! STRONG STRONG STRONG!!!!

Woke up early in da morning around 7:15am to go for the 6 hours driving tutorial.. all i can say i very very sien!!! i almost fall into sleep.. can see all the ppl around me starting "pancing ikan" .. lol.. ANyway, i found that the trainer who give the talk.. swt…look GAY!!! lolz.. i mean the way he present..  hahhaha…
These few days, i feel a bit moody whenever i see Kev. i dunno why.. but once i see his car.. it really make my mood gone although i know is not his fault. His car’s white smoke getting serious and serious..he told me because of the radiator got hole AGAIN!! It really like the smoke that come out from those factory.. but no choice.. cos he lack of $$ to repaier his car.. month end always make me worry a lot of stuff..And is not cheap if needed to change the new one, but he said he’ll try to "tampal" the hole for temporary….haih…
Everytime, his car will give us problem whem month end… swt… i really speechless sometime.. His parent promise him to let him get a Car.. probably Kenari.. instead of pay all the $$ for the old car, i rather to get a new car. All the $$ we spent on the car, really can pay for the down payment for his car d. haih.. what to do.. i can’t say so much sometime.. cos the car is not belong to me.. hard for me to tell also. ANyway,  hopefully all can settle asap. AND i really hope that he’ll TAKE CARE & LOVE his NEW CAR. (Cos i sometime i really feel insecure when i sit inside his car.. the way he drive) Hopefully, god know how i feel, and bless him and his car.. not to give any problem liao..
God Bless….

有一種朋友

有一種朋友,叫做損友
是常在你心愛人面前挖苦你,虧你,吐槽你
是常常扯你後腿,
但他卻是個從不真正傷害過你的人
有一種朋友,叫做開心果
是吊兒啷當時多,正經八百時少,
是常常惹的你火冒三丈,逗的周圍的人捧肚大笑,
但他卻是個從不做出令你無法?shy;諒他的!
0154;
又有一種朋友,叫做真心朋友
他或許不常陪你歡笑,但他卻是個能與你相擁而泣的人
你或許常常忽略他,不常找他,但他卻是個願花時間陪伴你的人
他或許不是詼諧逗趣,
但他卻是個曾叫你感動莫名的人
他或許不善與你哈笑,但他卻是個你能與說話的人
真心朋友,他是個呆子,
他不會讓你!
露宿街頭,他會為了你的棲身之處而到處奔波;
他把你的事當作他的事;
他不會讓你感到無助;他不會丟你獨自一人孤單
真心朋友,是個呆子
卻是你無法捨棄,一個你最愛的呆子!!

幸福是怎麼???

幸福是睡得好……
幸福是您喜歡的人也喜歡您
幸福是隨便走走沒目的什麼也不想
幸福是冬天等巴士時喝熱維他奶
幸福是看一本精采的好書
幸福是想起心上人而偷笑
幸福是情人用體溫為你送暖
幸福是生活簡單
幸福是和心愛的人一起看星
每個人! 需要幸福…
您幸福嗎？

曾经有位朋友告诉我，梦是因为脑没有休息，像太多了， 但也许已是发生了的事情，也可能将会发生的事。昨晚。。 梦见了joanne..。。 是我太想念你了吗？突然间 觉得好寂寞。。。很多话想和你说，很期待你回来的时候。和你去诳街，喝茶，八卦。。。 似乎你是我的男友。。 哈哈。。。 没啦，你却是我最要好的姐妹！

想想。。。。 到底我的人生会是怎么样呢? 工作并不是那么得开心。。。。 但又能如何呢? 也不是要硬着头做吗? 为了将来的生活, 还不是要挨!! 唉!!! 我的人生啊! 钱!! 钱!!　钱！！几时才能买车？我的 MyVi… （为钱而烦！！）